when i first started this blog, "if i didn't have you" came to mind for a title because i had this song in my head from watching monsters inc previously with my son. the song is at the end of the film with the credits and it's really endearing.

i changed my header picture to a photo taken over the weekend. i've been friends with these girls for more then half of my life. though they aren't blood, they are still part of my family. years of support, laughter, tears and frustration have all played a part of our amazing bond. i have been through some pretty shitty things (as have they) and they've always had my back. if it wasn't for them i wouldn't be half the person i am today.

bridget moved to florida almost two years ago. we talk (usually) daily, either by e mail or phone. when we talk it really doesn't feel like she's states and states away but she is and it will hit me at odd moments. i'll then blurt out, weepy with wet eyes, "i miss bridget".

about seven months passed since our last visit. this is how our reunions go -

we'll hug, she'll start to cry, i'll tell her she's being dramatic, we'll hug again, i'll start to cry, she'll put her hands around my face and tell me i'm pretty (that's my favorite part) and then i'll think WHO IN F MOVED HER TO FLORIDA? after the first couple of minutes it will revert back to feeling like no time has passed. we can pick right back up where ever we left off and that my friends is something special.

(photo by raphie)